Becoming Coco

New Challenge. Can I calm down when I have just filled myself up with social power? Any extroverts out there have the same problem? Spending time with people just winds me up so much like an energy drink that when I am trying to do homework I can not focus. I feel like I need to run a marathon to calm back down. I know what you're thinking, "So Coco why don't you go to the gym and calm down then do your work?" Well you know what, Mr. hypothetical logic person? Sometimes I just can't do that ok! It requires going home, changing, going outside or to the gym and moving, those are things I just don't feel like doing right now. Instead I just want to stay quietly in my friends room ranting to cyber space. Surely there must be another way to calm down when you just don't have the time to go to the gym/ don't have the nerve to start doing jumping jacks in front of your study partner. Maybe that's why I should study alone.

Three years ago at my first Biola Missions conference I poured out my heart to God and told him " Lord , here I am, I will go anywhere and do anything for you, but I don't know where it is you want me to go." I remember feeling so anxious and overwhelmed with the angst one feels when they are waiting for something they desire above all; their calling. I wondered why God wouldn't just tell me and I as frustrated because I was ready and willing to move mountains. That was then. Now it is my fourth Missions Conference and I joyfully proclaim that I have found my calling. God is leading me to be a teacher and after I graduate I will leave to teach English in China. I still feel overwhelmed but now I am overwhelmed with joy because I could never have imagined God's calling to be so perfect and wonderful. Like many Christians I imagined God would send me somewhere unbearably difficult and un-fun. If I surrendered he would send me to some 3rd world country where I'd