Becoming Coco

Originally posted on Medium March 25th, 2025. Please see my Medium for more the most recent posts and to support my writing!  https://filmgirlphilosopher.medium.com/blue-butterfly-goes-home-c3a67f4ab42e   As I walked down the hospital corridor toward the palliative care unit, where my mom is coming to spend the remainder of her life in comfort, I heard a man on the phone. He was explaining, almost in disbelief, how his loved one had a tumor, and how they’d just found out. Then, the night after, they had to rush her to the ER… and she went downhill so fast. “It all just happened so fast,” he said with a quiet acceptance of someone who’s had to explain this to countless family members in the last 24 hours. In that moment, I felt a connection with him. The same thing is happening to us. Sometimes it just does happen that fast. My mom just found out she had cancer a month ago, she had emergency surgery and then had to wait 3 weeks for chemo in order to recover. We moved her from I...

I’ve been dealing with some health issues lately so I’ve made a gpt that can help write prayers and declarations for healing. I’ve designed it specifically with women’s issues in mind and praying for the miracles of painfree periods and childbirth, but it can also help you pray for pain or illness of any kind.  It’s designed to suggest verses and prayers, as well as provide natural remedy advice.  Here are prayers for common health issues and some issues I have been facing as well.  At the bottom you’ll find the link to the gpt in case you want to create declarations or prayers of your own.  Prayer and Declarations for Complete Healing and Wisdom Heavenly Father, I come to You with a heart full of trust and faith in Your power to heal and restore. I bring before You every area in need of healing and every concern for myself, my loved ones, and even our cherished pets. You are the Great Physician, and we look to You as our source of life, wisdom, and restoration....

  Miracles I’ve always believed that miracles are possible, but I’ve struggled to believe they are possible for me. I’ve believed in God and believed He hears our prayers, but, underneath it all, I mostly felt He didn’t really want to answer mine. Maybe I wasn’t good enough, or my prayers were too selfish, or I just wasn’t worthy. But when I got sick, I didn’t have the time or energy to become “good enough” for my prayers to be answered. So, I just prayed—desperately—that I would see miracles and be healed. And through those raw, honest prayers, I began to have a shift in my mindset. My faith started to grow, and I began to realize that God does hear me and wants to answer my prayers. Sometimes, I think, He just wants us to keep on praying, to keep believing, and to train our minds to accept that miracles are possible for us. In this time, I’ve been reading books on prayer, listening to others share their miracle stories—some answered, some not—and surrounding myself with Bible ve...

  When I heard that Joker: Folie à Deux is a musical, my jaw dropped. And not in a good way. While I love musical theater and plan to watch the film with an open mind, I can’t help but think that the lack of transparency about this huge genre shift might be one of the boldest yet most tone-deaf marketing moves I’ve seen. This wasn’t advertised as “Joker the Musical”—instead, fans were left to discover this shift the hard way, likely with a mix of confusion and frustration. Was It Too Much of a Risk? When Joker debuted in 2019, it captivated audiences with its gritty, psychological tone, presenting a deep, unsettling look into the mind of Arthur Fleck. The follow-up, however, introduces musical elements, a significant genre shift that could easily catch audiences off guard—especially if they’re expecting the same intense, grounded storytelling. A bold choice like this works best when the audience is primed for it, allowing them to be open-minded rather than confused or disappointe...

 Growing up we were really lied to about food. The narrative I got from adults, commercials, doctors and common wisdom was that all unhealthy food was, was stuff we should only indulge in occasionally because if we overate we’d become fat, and once your fat you get sick.  That was an oversimplified lie that has ruined my health. I thought because I ate 80% healthy food and only 20% processed or fast food and was skinny that I was healthy. Wrong. The problem with fast food, processed food, packaged food, even a majority of so called healthy foods out there that say “natural” on the box and are made with seemingly healthy things like grain and fruit, is that they are chemically engineered to taste better with substances that once altered are no longer digested by the body as those foods were intended. To focus on one simple aspect, everything is laden with sugar, often hidden under one of its many names.  If you are eating a peanut butter sandwich you may as well be eating ...

I've created a custom GPT in ChatGPT designed specifically for interpreting dreams using biblical symbols and wisdom! This unique tool is perfect for anyone seeking deeper insight into their dreams, whether from a psychological or biblical perspective. By blending time-tested biblical wisdom with modern psychological principles, this GPT offers a unique approach to understanding the possible messages in your dreams. It can help you discern whether you're receiving guidance from God or uncovering valuable psychological insights. Plus, it provides relevant Bible verses that align with the themes in your dreams. I hope this GPT helps people discover the deeper meanings in their dreams, inspiring a more faith-filled and insightful life! Examples of how to use this GPT for dream interpretation: Ask about specific symbols : "What does it mean if I dream about a lion, according to biblical symbols?" Discern the source of your dreams : "How do I know if my dream is from ...